The Many Colors of Toxic: Blue 01

Like flower petals, he falls

Oh how he makes me blue.

I try to be his strength 

While on death he’ll always chew.

He’s like forget-me-nots

Whose soul can be the sky,

Laughing one minute

Until the waves reach the tide.

Then he is the broken man

As he drowns me in his tears,

Leaving me with the taste of salt

As it burns on my opened fears.

He tells me I’m his gardener

That without me, he’ll wilt

As I try to walk away from him

He pulls me back with guilt.

My fingers are stained with all

The blueberry mistakes that rot.

His ocean eyes are too unsteady

As he reminds me to forget-him-not.

I decided to create a poetry series that surrounds the subject of toxic relationships. Why? Honestly, I have no idea. I have created many of these color poems in one sitting and each poem explains a different aspect of a toxic relationship. I have not a clue where they came from but I know I need to share them with you. When you are in a relationship that is toxic it is difficult to see the warning signs. Perhaps he doesn't hit you, but he hurts you emotionally. Maybe he's really sweet but his jealousy frightens you. Perhaps he's a great guy, but his mental state is always negative. Poison hides effortlessly in relationships. It masks itself as anxiety and fear so you don't acknowledge the severity of its power. Perhaps this poem and the others I will share later will show girls the signs of a toxic relationship so that they can avoid it.